Connections and Gaps: Day Eight, Saturday, February 25, 2012

Again, tough to concentrate and to stop the thoughts. I could hear music from the floor above and the beat was stronger than my concentration. Thoughts creep. Lee says that meditation lets you be more aware of the synchronicities of life. I wonder if I am afraid to be even more aware than I already am. Ever since Barry died, I have been suspect of coincidence and accident. I certainly don't believe that everything happens for a reason. Stupid crap happens. But I see connections and gaps where most people do not. This is never particularly convenient.